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Saturday, December 19th, 2009

ana_mia [ 4months3weeks ]

12:13p minor setback well it turns out that party I went to yesterday was rediculous. I couldn't pick up my weed, therefore I had to settle with alcohol. Therefore I ended up binging (I more likely binge on booze then pot), so ya. I actualy ate until I threw up, but then I did throw it all up. Yay for purging!!! fuck it's so bad for my body, I can't let that happen to often. all in all I only gained about 1 lb. thank god. Today I'm going to the gym for a huge workout, unfortunatly tonight my mother is taking us all out to dinner at a very nice restaurant. I can't make her sad, so I will eat a normal meal. FML. CW: 136 GW: 120 how good is green tea at boosting your metabolism? Is there anything else you girls have tried that works more then others??

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ana_mia [ loregasm ]

2:45p Progresso Soup is really salty. it's vegetable with noodle. and 90 calories a serving. I've only had a couple spoons of the broth. it's really really really salty. and I feel really full and gross. also I had coffee this morning, and a spoonful of oatmeal. I feel so full and sick. blah. my friend had planned to go out to eat. but she has to go to a christmas party. success.

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ana_mia [ amandaxjayx17 ]

11:34a damn you holidays so yesterday i fasted all day, 0 cals. and i was down a pound this morning, which i guess i was happy about. but then i had to eat breakfast and i ate .. way too much. far over 1,000 calories. and i still have two more meals that will probably be over 1,000 cals each to get through tonight. so i've decided, dammit, if i have to eat like a normal person i should at least TRY to fucking enjoy it. i'll probably be over 165 again by christmas, but i would rather that then be miserable or feel like a failure for eating food that only comes around once a year. also, i've decided i need to stop purging everything if i want to try and enjoy the food i eat. there's nothing fun about making it all come back up. my stomach is killing me, and i can FEEL the fat growing on my body. but i'm trying to stop purging. i feel like i'm going to puke without myself inducing it though. i feel so goddamn obese. i just need to get through christmas, then i will fast for as long as i can. the only thing i'm terrified for is to be 170 again. all my work will have been for nothing. i'm really starting to hate the holidays. -_______-

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ana_mia [ rubytuesday6 ]

11:24p day 2...success. so the salt water flush yesterday was such a fucked up failure lol!! i forced myself to drink all that disgusting salty water and no effect happened. anyway today is the second success day of my liquid fast. yesterday i had 50 calories worth of soup and today the same. i MUST lose 3 kgs before my birthday (26! =S ) and am not in the mood to excercise while am on a fast =\ i just finished reading an amazing book by the dalai lama its called "the art of happiness" it is very nice i love reading such books they really help me a lot. i recommend this one. so tomorrow am starting another book called the art of meditation. how are you all doing? tell me about ur days i love comments lol :P XX

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ana_mia [ misguidedvanity ]

7:23p Im home from university; & I hate it Im constantly arguing with my dad, and they keep making me eat abolsute rubbish! Dads ordering chinese. Im havin chow mein but wont eat it all - i usually just eat the veg in it :) Had nothin today except tea and a sandwich. Im really missing this guy too I didnt think I liked him but since ive been away from him, he is all I can think about. Plus i think hes kinda picked up on th fact i have depression; but still he comes and talks to me and looks after me. He is pretty amazing Im just scared because he is not the normal type of boy i go for; so im a bit cautious of gettin involved any further with him than i already am. I dunno; what do you guys think?

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ana_mia [ daisydeyn ]

9:16p  I fasted for 24 hours then i had dinner as usually i had Kellog's All Bran,i added cinnamon to taste better 4 holegrain bread slices some chicken pieces 3 bananas small ones That's about 800 calories maybe more I should have the chicken. I still feel hungry but zero cokes will fix tha! I don't understand why i m fat  I never eat chocolates or fry food or eggs or cheese or chips oR THOSE cHRISTMAS CANDYS EVERYBODY'S EATING! it's so unfair!!! WHEN I WILL BE FINALLY THIN????????? is that too much that i'm asking for:(

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ana_mia [ alaekika ]

11:40a Day two Of getting my wisdom teeth out. Sucks. I took my ibprofin 800 and lortab and dont fel like it does much. My partents are like "Oh no you cant take lortab while were gone we have to be home with you.." .... it is like the lowest dosage of  lortab there is. 500 mg. Im almost completely normal on them. just a little grogy. We have our family christmas party tomorrow and Im sad I cant go. I could but like id rather not cuz i feel so ugly with bruised cheeks. they arent really THAT swollen. I bet they'll get a little worse before tomorrow then start going down. All my friends want to come over and bring me milkshakes and watch movies but I JUST WAN TO BE ALONE WITH MY SUGAR FREE PUDDING AND FAT FREE APPLE SAUCE. the end. I mostly sleep anyways and i know that if you talk more you swell more. I actually dont care about looking like a chipmonk as much as i thought i would. Every one has to do it and i know it only lasts like 2 days. Does anyone have any movie suggestoins? I like every kind of movie but I would probly like something comical. Ive been watching like seriouse hert jerkers haha. or any book sugggestions? ive watched all the movies i rented already. I ve been emailing my Communications TA. He is so awesome. We email every day. He has a girlfriend :( and I totally have a crush on him. We both connect so well.. We have the deepest conversatoins over email.Thay are always long emails also. Whats a girl to do. I always fall for the ones that are taken. I posted this vid to Bodyperfect but just in case some of you arent on that here you go. its me waking up from anesthesia. Pretty funny. Esp my answer to "Do you want to stop and get a milkshake?" .... lolllllz! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=birm93RHxmY&feature=player_embedded

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ana_mia [ josefina_17 ]

1:48p just made to eat pizza i'm so angry right now, and i alwys get in a pissy mood when i'm forced to eat and can't get out of it , so now my families all angry at me too. just not a good day I ate beans - 60 cal? 3/4 slice of pizza- 350 cal? but i'm doing some sit ups right now to burn some.

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ana_mia [ the_famex3 ]

11:57a my mom .... is making homemade chicken noodle soup, hot chocolate. cookies...shes on a mission.... fml current mood: blah

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ana_mia [ waterbottle10 ]

12:55p The other day someone had posted that this group was to impersonal, so I thought I'd tell you guys about me. And hopefully you guys would do the same:) I just got accepted to the University of my choice!:D I'm 17, turning 18 in January. I love to read, and I mean LOVEEE! I am anorexic, a was bulimic before. I've had an ED scince I started high school, I'm graduating this year. I love orange juice:) I can live on that stuff! I love Breakfast at Tiiffanys! My favorite movie of all time! I like Owl City alot. I read the posts on this site every chance I get lol. I'm a waitress:( I have brown hair and eyes. I'm not scared of dying I cannot wait to have kids. I think I would be a great mom. I can't drive to save my life! lol. I realy love harry potter;) Ummm thats it for now:)  Lots of love<3 current mood: geeky

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ana_mia [ miss_thinbones ]

12:50p i am such an emotional eater, with ANY emotion. any one have tips how to deal with my emotions without eating the day away?

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ana_mia [ nicky711 ]

12:46p Question. Does anybody have the weight watchers scale? Do you know how accurate it is? Because my boyfriend has that one n it says I weigh less then my scale does which is also digital. A 3 pound difference actually which is a lot so idk which one to trust?

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ana_mia [ nvr2th1n ]

8:38a 3 a Day Hello Everyone :) So I know I was going to start a fast today but with how hectic and busy I am the first few days that it takes to get into the fast will not be doable... I am going to wait until new years day (I know how cliche...ugh) when all the guests leave to do that fast, but I am going to try the 3 a day fruit diet for a while! So far i have had half a banana. Theres breakfast! Done! The smallest amount of food will make you feel full and have energy, as long as there is something, so this plan sounds ok to me. Well I hope things are going well for all of you! Think Thin

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ana_mia [ silentpleas ]

7:58a GRRR! I hate failing. I Hate Failing. I HATE FAILING. Today, I will not fail. I will complete a full day of fasting. Here's a few quotes that keep me going: Success comes to those who become success conscious. Failure comes to those who indifferently allow themselves to become failure conscious. Sacrifice is giving up something good for something better. Root for me. I CAN DO THIS. Take Care current mood: determined

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ana_mia [ lastchance123 ]

8:30a im going off to texas today! Wish me luck food wise....hopefully i dont come back even heavier! Texting buddy??? Anway I wont be on livejournal for a whole week almost! Ill miss you all! Good luck on everyones food plans:) Bye xoxoxoxxoxox LastChance123

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